my moms email to me

dear mary thankyou so much for your love and concern. i am greatly hurt by what my daughter is saying about me behind my back. i am more concerned with her drinking and her diabetes.i was up for 24 hours after my accident after being run off the road by a logging truck whose driver was either drunk or asleep the man in the car behind me witnessed the event and said it was the best snap decision driving he had seen that he almost wet his pants.i hit the tree as the next stop was to go down about a 20 ft revene and i surely would have been dead. i had my 2 service dogs with me i grabbed daisy threw her to the floor grabbed marilyn's service vest she was in the back seat and pulled her to the floor and told her to "down stay" in the harshed tone i could before the crash.fire depts. from 3 cities came and the state troopers came while they were strapping me on the backboard the new emt did not know how to put on the c-collar i put it on .they had to use the jaws of life to pry open the car doors. the state trooper was going to take my dogs to the shelter i told him to reach into marilyn's vest and get out the paper he asked me what the paper was and i told him it was the ada federal law regarding service dogs and their handlers. i told them if my dogs were not allowed to go in the ambulance i would sign a medical release and i would go home and they would each be fined $150,000. the dogs went in the ambulance to the hospital with me. in the er they had a room waiting with blankets on the floor for the dogs. i fx 3 ribs and my sternum and i carry my DNR papers in my purse and my living will and my organ donor papers mom has a copy of them as well.the car was totalled.when fawn told me she was coming i stayed up and hauled the vacuum upstairs, moved all the furniture in her room, stripped both the beds washed the linens, made the bed. then she said she was going to stay in the other bedroom so i moved the furniture in the other bedroom and vacuumed stripped the bed and made it up moved the furniture around in the loft dusted and they ended up staying at the holiday inn. when they got here i had had 4 hrs of sleep in 2 days and 3 seizures. fawn said after we got back from town i took a bunch of pills i collapsed in the chair this is the list of meds i take please feel free to pass this letter on to the whole family i have nothing to hidefish oil 3000mgmutivitamin qdcalcium qdpotassium 10 meq qdtopamax 200mg amtopamax 100mg 12ntopamax 200mg 6pmpromethezathine 25mg q4-6 prn nauseaneurontin 600mg tidrobaxin 750mg bidlortab 10 q 8hr pristiq 50mg qdxanax 0.5mg q8hrglucosamine chondrotinmarilyn my service dog alerts me to a seizure usually an hour before as well as daisy who has brain cancer now that is why i had to have a new dog trained.if it is any of my family's business i do not drink like you all do. i do smoke cigarettes. swear upon occassion. i see a therapist every 2-3 wks and talk about how hateful and dysfunctional my family is. i see a psychiatrist every 3 months who monitors my meds, michael. i see a neurologist who regulates my pain meds my topamax and my neuronton as i am losing the sensation in my hands and feet. i don't go dr. shopping go to one dr. and get pain meds and then another dr. and get pain meds. i don;t buy $150 shoes or concert tickets then complain about not being able to buy my diabetic meds and then drink alcohol.. i don't stab my mother in the back. if i have a concern about my mother i talk to her about it but i guess i never taught my daughter to respect me and that is my fault.i guess fawn forgot to tell you about the owner at firehouse sub saying i don't pay for meals there when we went there to eat.. i have a reputation all over town for all the people disabled, elderly, homeless and the animals i have helped. that is why i am tired and old and worn out. that is what the people here will remember me for. my daughter is ashamed of me for living in a house that is falling apart, who wears baggy clothes cause she has lost over 100 lbs my animals are happy, healthy and cared for and they don't stab you in the back. they love and accept you for what you are and never accuse. i can only assume fawn is so unhappy in her life that she had to make hateful lies about mine she has my pity. i sent her a text message and she did not even give me the respect to answer she is no longer welcome at my house. she is welcome to apologize. she will always have my love but not my forgiveness, she has my pity. thankyou mary for your concern and hello and love to michael please feel free to email this to the entire family it is entirely to painful for me to type this over and over. lots of love carol and the zoo kisses to the kitties