DEAR MARY THANKYOU FOR THE INSIGHT. GLAD YOU AND MIKEY WERE THERE FOR MOM'S BDAY. I SENT HER A FUNNY E-MAIL CARD WITH DOGS SINGING AS I KNEW WITH THE MAIL DOWN HERE WHO KNOWS WHEN SHE WILL GET HER BDAY CARD. I HVE APOLOGIZED TO FAWN , SENT HER ATLEAST 100 TEXT MESSAGES. CARDS, LEFT MESSAGES ON HER CELL PHONE AND HOUSE PHONE. I GET CRAZY E-MAILS FROM HER FRIENDS LIKE THE ONE I FORWARDED ON TO YOU FROM JOHN, HER OLD PARTNER FROM KEEGO FIRE DEPT. WHEN I ASKED MY MOM ABOUT IT SHE TOLD ME I SHOULD HAVE NEVER GIVEN HIM MY E-MAIL ADDDRESS AND I SAID HOW COULD I HAVE GIVEN HIM MY E-MAIL ADDRESS WHEN I DON'T EVEN KNOW IT. MOM SAID HE WAS MARRIED WITH 2 CHILDREN AND WAS UNHAPPY IN HIS MARRIAGE AND WANTED TO DATE FAWN. I ASKED HER IF SHE THOUGHT THAT WAS OKAY WITH HER, FOR FAWN TO BE DATING A MARRIED MAN. FAWN SHOULD BE DISCUSSING HER ISSUES WITH ME, NOT HAVING HER FRIENDS SENDING ME VISCIOUS E-MAILS AND HAVING THE WHOLE FAMILY TREATING ME LIKE I AM PSYCHOTIC AND ON THE VERGE OF SUICIDE. MOM MAKES EXCUSES FOR HER AND I UNDERSTAND WHY AS SHE IS HER ONLY SUPPORT SYSTEM AND I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING SHE DOES FOR HER. I WILL NOT EVER BE COMING BACK TO MICHIGAN AGAIN. I PROBABLY WILL NOT BE SPEAKING TO MY DAUGHTER AGAIN.
I LOVE HER VERY MUCH SHE HAS RIPPED MY HEART OPEN AND DOES NOT CARE ABOUT ANYONE EXCEPT MY MOM AND HERSELF. I WORRY ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN MOM DIES AND SHE WILL GO BACK TO HER EMPTY LIFE BECAUSE SHE NEEDS TO BE NEEDED SO BAD. HER WORLD IS MOM AND WORK AND THAT IS IT. I LOVE HER VERY MUCH BUT I HAVE TO LET HER GO. SHE WON'T TALK TO ME. SHE PUT UP THE BRICK WALL AROUND HERSELF AND I HAVE MADE MULTIPLE ATTEMPTS TO COMMUNICATE WITH HER AND SHE HATES ME AND THAT IS HER CHOICE.
I GUESS SHE JUST WISHES I WOULD GO AWAY AND DIE AND THEN SHE WILL BE HAPPY I DON'T KNOW THANX FOR ALL YOU 2 DO FIOR MOM I HAVE TO GO NOW BECAUSE THIS IS MAKING ME CRY TOO MUCH AND I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THE ANIMALS LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH.....CAROL AND THE ZOO