SORRY

Sorry it's been so long since posted anything. I have been extremely busy with my grandma. She moved from her condo to an assisted living place at 13/halsted. She seems happy but at the same time sad.I think she misses the condo and the memory's with papa. She is more confused. So i have become the post-it note queen. She does really well with the notes. The other ladies that sit with her at meal time love me. I help them get up from the table and when grandma and I go to the store i also get them things as well. On Friday i am taking another one of them to the Dr. I figure i am doing a service to EMS as well, as i think i am savin a few people from older people being on the road driving.LOL. I will try and keep everyone updated more often on stuff sooner i hope.

Dear fawn have tried to call you many times regarding gram. she said she has had many dr appts and med changes? i asked what the drs say and she says to ask you kind of hard when you are ignoring me. If you want to stay mad at me that is your issue not mine i am trying to find out what is going on. She told me she was in 2 car accidents so she gave you her car i did not know about her car accidents she said you told me about them. apparently you have been telling her you are talking to me. I called mike and asked him to speak to you seemed fair since you spoke to him about me, right? she seems very depressed and talks alot about going to be 80 and how the drs want to do surgery on her shoulder, won't this be 4-5 this time? She can't remember her phone # and her e-mail box is full so could you clear it for her. I appreciate you being there for her and all you do for her. she is very needy and time consuming and does not leave much time for your life. It is you living your life thru her. i know you made a promise to gramps to watch out and take care of her for him but he did not mean for you to give up your life for her. I love my mother very much, but you have your life too and i don't want you to stress yourself out. i will not be coming back to michigan anymore as you have made it quite apparent that i disgust you and you are embarrassed by me and you want nothing to do with me. that i have hurt you horribly or atleast that is what the e-mails from your friends say. Please tell big john that he needs to keep his pants zipped up, stay with his wife and raise his children and not bother me, I don't need the silliness on my computer. Is he 14yrs. old or what.. Besides you have alot more class than that, chief would roll over in his grave over that one. You are wonderful, beautiful, giving, intelligent, caring and so many other qualities and you deserve the best things in life. gram said you enjoyed the article about me in the paper i don't know if that is true or not. I don't think you really have anything positive to say about me anymore.the work you do as a firefighter/paramedic is as important as i do when i go speak at the autistic and disability seminars. quality of things are not important to me but rather quality of life. I am the voice of the disabled and the voice of the animals. and i guess i am the voice you have closed out of your life. Please remember i love you and i always will. my heart is always open as well as my door you just have to walk thru. i love you very, very much. please take care of the most important thing- yourself. xoxooxox mommy and the zoo ps. please excuse my typos the seizures meds make my fingers numb and i hit the wrong keys on the keyboard. xoxo i will always be here for you, for how long here is we don't know.......love you fawn-e-butt